Another Randomness Post
I don’t actually know what to write about today. So…this is another random kind of post.
I did not have Art Therapy yesterday because of the holiday. I thought that would really disrupt me…But I kept thinking that yesterday was Sunday…So it is kind of like I didn’t miss the routine of my Monday because I had an extra Sunday.
For the most part, I had a good long weekend. Some definite mood blips here and there…I get so touchy and irritable…And for no good reason. And I can feel that I am irritable and it just simmers inside of me, but I can’t make it go away. It is really frustrating to me. I don’t ever remember being angry and irritable all the time like I am now….And I don’t like it!
I had yoga yesterday morning and even though I still feel a bit nervous and awkward during yoga, it does do an amazing job of balancing me…I feel so different after I do yoga. But I do need to learn to still my mind more…and keep my breathing regular and all of those yoga things that involve centering your focus on yourself. I am not used to that kind of focus on myself…gentle, concentrated in a positive way….trying to find my strength…It’s hard stuff and I feel miles and miles away from it. But I will keep chipping away at it…bit by bit.
Last Monday, I lost Pocket Peace. I know I had her when I left the house to go to Art Therapy. By lunchtime at work, she was gone. I looked for her…The AT looked for her at his office….But neither of us found her. And to be perfectly honest, I didn’t expect to. When I discovered her missing, I just knew in my heart that she was gone forever. I am disappointed that I lost her, but mostly, I am sad about it because the AT cut out the piece of paper on which I painted/drew Pocket Peace. It kind of gave me a connection to him outside of his office. So, it was not only comforting from the meaning of the art I had put on it, but because it had a bit of the AT too. I have a little piece of citrine that I had started carrying with Pocket Peace three or four weeks ago…It has the same meaning to me as PP (minus the AT part) so, I am not left without a pocket talisman. But…I do miss Pocket Peace.
Let’s see…Other random things….
The leaves on the trees are losing their dense greenness and you can see the tint of the fall colors starting. I kind of dread the changing of the seasons. Fall is fine…but it puts us one step closer to winter and last winter was really bad for me….It makes me dread this winter.
My summer flowers are also winding down…My beautiful black-eyed Susans are getting fewer and farther between. I haven’t gotten my fall bulbs yet….Dh and I were just talking about that yesterday, we definitely need to run to Lowe’s…I need some flowers to cheer up the early spring!
The strawberries I planted for next summer are lush and growing like crazy. This makes me very happy. I don’t have a huge number of plants, but it is a start…And with all the runners they have sent out…I will have more than enough plants in the next year or so!