Another Therapy Monday

Woke up from a nightmare in the middle of the night completely frozen.  I had to re-orient myself and give myself permission to move.  It took me a long time to fall back asleep and I feel like when I did I was guarded and didn’t really let myself sleep deeply again.

I used to have the nightmares under control until I started Art Therapy.  Now, they are more or less a constant…Sometimes, like last night, worse than others.

Now, it’s another Monday.  What should be on the therapy docket for today?

Thursday, the Art Therapist threw me a curve ball.  He asked about my relationship with my parents.  This is not a topic we have delved into much and I was not prepared for it.  It would be helpful if he could give me a two-week heads up on tricky topics….Then I will be prepared.  But Thursday, I kind of froze and didn’t know what to say.  I stumbled a bit and didn’t say what I wanted to say.  And of course, the AT followed up with wanting to know about feelings related to my parents.   I think I have finally figured it out…he’s not going to let go of the whole feelings thing.

So what am I gonna do about it?  Feelings are complicated and I don’t do them very well.  What I need is a crash course in feelings….What they are, how to feel them, what they mean and how to name them.  That ought to be easy, right?

Anyway…at least today, I am marginally more prepared for further discussion about my parents.  And phenomenally unprepared for more discussion about feelings.

Happy Therapy to me!