No More Trusting
I am done. I am done putting myself out there and trying to trust people and building relationships. I am done trying to believe that I am worth anything and that I matter…because when it comes down to brass tacks…It’s all bullshit.
You would think that I would have figured it out by now. DO NOT TRUST PEOPLE. But I am clearly a slow learner on this. And so, I have to learn the same lesson over and over and over again and get hurt in the process over and over and over again.
This time…maybe I will get it. Maybe now I will remember to stay inside my shell and to keep people away…no matter how appealing they may be. Because it is all lies and deceit and I am the one who is going to get screwed and be left having to pick up the pieces.
I am so disgusted with myself right now…at my own stupidity and thinking that I could change…but I get what I deserve, which is to be ignored and forgotten because I am not important and I shouldn’t even exist.