I had pretty much given up on my physician responding to my letter…I figured it was a done deal. But yesterday, I got an email from my doctor’s office through their online patient documentation/communication system. It was actually a reply to my letter! And…It was kind of disappointing.
I read your letter and wanted to let you know that I am well aware of your efforts to manage your depression. I think that these are concerns that you are working on with your psychiatric and psychotherapeutic providers and that I have great respect for the hard work you are doing on your own and with them. Please let me know if there are symptoms or physical concerns for which I may be of help.
Best wishes, [your doctor]
Well…at least she responded? But it is kind of….flat? Lackluster? Impersonal? Ignoring my concerns? I don’t know…I guess I just expected more from her….Maybe just something that showed she actually heard what I was saying.
And who the heck uses the term “psychotherapeutic”?
This does not change her probationary status. I have another one of those psych check appointments in late January and believe me…That appointment may well determine the course of the rest of our relationship….Assuming I decide to keep the appointment. At this point I may just say, “Screw it!” and leave her out of the psychotherapeutic loop.
And you know, I am aware that I am very particular and fussy and perhaps at times <ahem> unreasonable. But…I need to feel like I can trust my physician and I need to feel like she hears me and that she doesn’t just lump me into some category in which she thinks I should fit. Cuz…I defy categorization and I need to be seen as the individual that I am!!!
The Husband Day
Other than that, yesterday was really nice. Dh and I did all sorts of stuff that we had been wanting to do. We went downtown…like actually downtown (the AT is half a block from downtown and I never walk around the corner to be downtown…too scary!). We wandered through stores and looked all the shiny things. We had breakfast at a nice little bistro which happens to have both gluten free and vegetarian menu options (Yay for me!) We held hands, we talked, we laughed…It was really nice. Dh and I have been pretty disconnected lately and it was just a treat to spend some couple time together.