Yesterday was yoga. I have to admit, I was anxious….And the whole time, I couldn’t settle my brain. Well…maybe not the whole time, but I was easily distractible. And when we hit the end for Savasana (which we did sitting) I was totally on edge. But…I was sitting with the sun on me a little bit, and I just absorbed the feeling on the sun and its brightness through my closed eyes. And the YI did the shortest Savasana ever…which was okay with me.
We started our session by talking. She asked about my goals and I had printed out my blog from yesterday, so I handed it to her. That way, she got the goals and the thinking process of how I arrived at the goals. And then she talked about how certain poses, the ones that open up your chest and front can open up things inside your body, like trauma held in your body, feelings, etc. She noted that last week we had done a lot of those poses and ended in a reclining Savasana which created that very open body posture. So, while I had been thinking that yoga had nothing to do with the flashback…Maybe it did. And you know what….that’s okay. I will take it as feedback from my body that I need to apply myself more in therapy to express myself, because it looks like if I don’t, it will find a way out of me anyway. (And I would much rather have stuff come out on my terms rather than in flashback form.)
And speaking of feelings and stuff coming out…My YI made a point of telling me that whatever feelings that I want/need to express during yoga are okay, that she won’t be thrown by expression of feelings.
I have been making an effort with the things the nutritionist wanted me to work on. I did have an afternoon snack 4/7 days this week. I have been diversifying my food repertoire. Initially it caused me a lot of anxiety…now it just causes me some anxiety. I have been trying to bump up my calories some…That has been a lot harder. At least when I see her this afternoon, I can say that I have been really trying and I won’t have to feel as ashamed.
Art Therapy Homework
Monday, the AT gave me a homework assignment to go with the dead-and-buried me picture. He wanted me to work on how I would get some nurturance and light into the darkness. He gave an example of ventilation into mines, and how if a mine caves in the first thing they do is pump oxygen down to help the people. So…what and how would I send nurturing down to my buried person?
I am working on the project, but it isn’t done today as it is in clay and the clay is still drying and then I have painting and gluing and such to do with it.
And speaking of clay….I picked up my bowls last night. I didn’t stay and do anymore work as there is only one session left and not enough time to really get a project going and finished. I decided that three extra classes were enough and I will just take a break until the next session in January. In January, I am going to work on honing my wheel skills. I can’t wait!
Anyway…here are the bowls: