Ugh…The Awful Book and My Other Homework and And The Rest Of The Day…

Ugh…The Awful Book!

I read the book.  I can now look the Nutritionist in the eye and say that I did my homework.  I will say, that having an better understanding of the Internal Family Systems model did help me get through the book…And I think I understand the theory differently now, but I still contend that it is a muddy and poorly written book and the illustrations trivialize the message and some are just plain offensive to me.

And in terms of introducing IFS to the lay-person…I don’t think so.

And in terms of giving it to someone with an eating disorder as a reading assignment…I found it a huge turn-off that the book represented the subpersonality of food and eating as “Happy Pig.”  Really?  Is the lack of sensitivity in this representation just me being over sensitive, or does it seem a poor choice?

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I would have liked a bit more of a theoretical analysis/intellectual kind of book.  And some empirical data to support the validity of the data and techniques being presented.  And I would have liked to see a little bit less of the author’s personal experiences used as examples.

Will I share any of this with the Nutritionist? Nope.  I will smile and nod and say I read it and that it wasn’t the best fit for me.  I might ask her what main points she thought would be of benefit to me…But I don’t have enough trust with her to offer a critical opinion.

My Other Homework

I had Art Therapy homework too….And I am really, really reluctant to take it in and show him.  What he asked me to do and what wanted doing do not match up…I feel very vulnerable about it.  I also feel pretty guarded because I know I did the wrong thing.  I feel all anxious and jittery about showing him.  And I can tell you this, I won’t be able to look him in the eye because I will feel embarrassed and feel like he is going to judge me.

Okay…I am now going to remind myself that therapy is my safety zone.  I can be me…I can be the me that I don’t let myself be anywhere else, I don’t have to pretend that everything is okay, I can show that things are messy in my brain.  It is okay. He will not judge. Safety zone. Safety zone. Safety zone.

And The Rest Of The Day…

Nutritionist appointment.  I am doomed.  Except for one day, I met my goal.  But…I still ate way too few calories each day and I still lost a chunk of weight. (Which doesn’t necessarily bother me…but again, I know did the wrong thing according to her goals and I will be stressed about it.)

Primary Physician appointment.  Still doomed, please refer to prior doomed-ness.  And…she gave me an eating challenge when I saw her on Friday and I failed with it.  So, I am double-doomed.

I think today is going to suck.

3 thoughts on “Ugh…The Awful Book and My Other Homework and And The Rest Of The Day…

  1. I think that book looks like it sucks too. And I think it does sound insensitive and over simplified. I don’t know much about IFS but I *think* it’s a similar model to Transactional analysis which uses the healthy adult, healthy parent, critical parent, child, ego state. There’s all sorts of variations of the ego states and basically it’s just a way to work out which ego state you’re operating from in any situation. We swap ego states depending who we’re with and what we’re doing. It works for me to have these descriptions because I can often feel very fragmented and dissociated. So it helps me work out what part is speaking or what part is most in need. For me it’s good but it doesn’t help everyone. It’s okay if it’s not useful for you.

    • You know, ego states make more sense to me than the IFS model. The model I am most familiar with is from my study of early childhood development and that is Piaget’s schema model. But I think they are all loose variations of the same thing…Just for some reason IFS makes a lot less sense to me. Perhaps it is simply because I am so much less familiar with it. But at least I can say I gave it a try. 🙂

  2. I hope the day didn’t end up as bad as you thought it would and if it did I’m sending you lots of hugs.

    The book was incredibly insensitive, imo.

    You’re right–AT is your safe place and if your homework took you in a different direction then I’m pretty sure there is significance to that. I don’t think he’d be upset about that.

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