I feel like a broken record right now…The needle keeps pushing forward, hitting a gouge and then jolting back, repeating the same phrase over and over and over and over.  I can’t get any further forward, so I am left looping, returning to the same point, ending up just a fractured piece of the song.

And I don’t know how to stop the loop.

Right now, I feel like everything I do is wrong.  And if everything I do is wrong, then somehow I must be wrong.  Wrong and broken.

Do people ever actually survive trauma? Or do they just slowly implode until they are just the shell of a person?

4 thoughts on “Looping

  1. You have survived trauma and people do survive..but you are obviously at a point of your healing which is difficult.. I know it is easier said than done, but patience is key and being kind to yourself..you are not wrong! You are enough and worthy in every way..I have also felt stuck before in my therapy and healing, but now when I look back at that time, I see it was necessary..Some obstacles are just harder to overcome..take care of yourself.x

      • I completely get that..I’ve been there too..Are you on medication at all? I found that by being on anti-depressants whilst working through the hardest of my traumas, really helped take the edge off..

      • Yes, I am on medication…I have taken several different meds over the past 6+ years with some help, but they only seem to barely take the edge off. I just had a med adjustment yesterday, we shall see if that helps any.

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