Hollow
I just don’t have much to say today. I feel empty inside, hollow…Like my outside is a crumbling shell and I am imploding because there is nothing on the inside to give body to the shell.
I feel depressed…Sad, isolated, alone, unmotivated, flat.
Those feelings careen around in the hollowness, bouncing off the shell, overlapping, tangling, ricocheting…becoming an unbearable dissonance.
I don’t even want to bother with slipping on an “I’m okay.” facade to day. I just want to fade away into nothingness and not feel anything anymore.
This image.. through your art, I can FEEL that hollowness you describe. Let go of the facade… and keep creating. Art is a universal language that speaks so much louder than words.
Your artwork is beautiful! You are beautiful!!!! I had to read all the way back to where you posted the wedding picture of you and your husband to make sure this was still the Heidi I knew before! So much seems to have changed in both of our lives over the past few years! Want to do a little knit a long with me this weekend or next? I still have the little mitten you sent me for my Christmas tree so many years ago! Makes me smile every year! 🙂
Thanks! Yes…It’s me, I promise! 😉 I have been trying to catch up on your blog too…I started at the beginning and have been working my way up. I can’t believe how old your kiddos are now!
I would love to do a KAL. What do you have in mind? My yarn and needles are at the ready!
Well, right now I am trying this crochet pattern… http://littlemonkeyscrochet.com/call-the-midwife-inspired-baby-blanket-free-pattern/ BUT… I am thinking of switching off to this one and get a couple of these done. One for a boy and one gender neutral for babies that are coming around in the next three or so months… http://shelbyknits.blogspot.com/2014/08/wesley-crib-blanket-pattern-this-simple.html I just need something easy quick and satisfying because between friends and family I need to get five blankets put together quickly!
I don’t think my crochet skills are strong enough for the midwife blanket…But it is amazingly beautiful!!! I was just looking at my Mason Dixon book at the log cabin instructions this afternoon…The knitted blanket looks fun…Some yarn colors already popped right to mind…Some variegated yarns and some complementary solids would be fun. 🙂