So…I had this awful thought last night. I have been fretting and anxious about The Facility and wondering what will happen if they don’t accept me. Last night, it sort of hit me….What if they DO accept me?!
I don’t know if I am ready for this.
I really, really wish that I had never gotten myself into this mess. Everyone is so convinced going to The Facility is the right thing. And that the trauma treatment program at The Facility is the right thing…But what if it doesn’t work? What if the restrictions and confinement of The Facility make me worse? What if going to The Facility ends up being traumatic?
I held it together pretty well on Tuesday and yesterday, but this morning is my phone “interview” and I am pretty much sick with worry.