Wow…Just when I think, “How could I feel any worse?” I have a day like yesterday. It was ugly.
I finally broke down and emailed the AT, here is what I said:
I finally figured out who the OTR is. She is the one that teaches the Life Skills classes (Of course! It is a function-based class on interacting with people.)
Today, a girl, A, was chatting with me in the hall. She said that I am an inspiration. I was really touched and also a bit surprised by her comment. Me? And inspiration?
And yesterday during Community Meeting, Glitter H said that I am really supportive and kind and basically a great member of the community. I was—I don’t know—I kind of felt all, “Ah shucks.” And then today I told Glitter H that she is awesome and she told me I am awesome too. And I looked at her. And she said, “If you aren’t ready to believe it, then I will hold it for you and when you are ready to believe it, I will give it back to you.” ❤ ❤ ❤
There is another young woman here, G. She is sick. Some of the girls here are sooo sick. She cries a lot, I know because she is my suitemate. I have been trying to connect with her and have been repeatedly rebuffed. She was crying in the hall yesterday and I said, “I know you are going to say no, but do you want a hug?” And much to my surprise, she said “Yes.” I gave her a big hug and I could pretty much feel every bone in her body and every vertebra.
Anyway, this girl is an amazing artist. She does these delicate watercolors of trees. It is hard to explain why they touch me so much, but I love them.