My stomach hurts. It is all knotted up and miserable and I know it is not my stomach that hurts, but really it is my emotions that hurt. And I can’t make the hurt stop.
Food does not go easily into a knotted stomach, nor does it feel good once it gets there. This adds to the emotional angst.
I have two appointments today and I don’t want to go to either. One is the Nutritionist and I just can’t face her or deal with her today. I want nothing more than to cancel the appointment…And I am honestly giving it serious consideration. But…she charges a missed-appointment fee, which is kind of hefty. But maybe this will be the last week I go twice a week, because I cannot handle the pressure.
My other appointment is with the AT. I don’t want to go to that appointment out of sheer defeatedness. I just feel like there’s no point anymore. But…usually when I am most resistant to going is when I need to go the most. (That applies to the Nutritionist as well.)
It is just one of those days when I can’t get out of my own way.
And it is snowing. Really? May 16th and snow? Alas…such is the life of living in the Snowy Hinterlands.