My resolve from yesterday is pretty much gone. I am in a bad head space this morning. Actually, it started last night…And appears to have followed me into morning. I am mad at myself for a number of reasons. I am frustrated and tired and I just don’t care anymore.
What is the point if all I ever am is miserable? Why do I even bother to try to move forward? I just feel like making maladaptive coping choices. Because I know they will make me feel better.
I feel like all I do on my blog is spew the same old negativity and miserableness.
All I want is to feel nothing or to feel better.