I Know What I Am Feeling Is Wrong

Rough evening last night.  It was the wake for my friend who killed herself.  I didn’t go to the wake, nor did I want to.  But yesterday, I was having a hard time processing her death.  And last evening, I was really upset.  My feelings are conflicting so  I am confused and I am sad.  And I am even jealous, for which I feel incredible shame and guilt. I am jealous that she is no longer in constant pain, but I still am.

 

One thought on “I Know What I Am Feeling Is Wrong

  1. It’s times like these that a simple “like” on the post just isn’t enough. No comment anyone could say can be helpful for the healing that is needed in the time of loss….so I simply send you a virtual hug.

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