Anxious Waiting

Since my doctor hasn’t faxed over the medical stuff to the facility yet as she is waiting on the urinalysis, and since I told the place that I would prefer to admit on Monday, it looks like it will be a Monday admission.  I am super stressed about my doctor getting the paperwork over in time.  Like SUPER stressed.  And I can’t look at plane tickets until I get the official okay  from the place which is dependent on their doctors reviewing my doctor’s paperwork….All this puts me on edge.

I have every last little thing I need to take with my gathered on the table in my craft room. Now it’s just the waiting game.

I said good-bye last night to my best friend before I head into treatment and then she is moving across the country next week.  I don’t know when I will ever see her again.  This is a huge loss for me.  And I barely feel anything.  I have shut down feeling so as to not have to deal with it.

I am just tired.  Like aching in my bones kind of tired.  I know it is from suppressing my feelings. I know it is from anxiety about going into treatment.  I know it is from fighting my ED. I know it is from not eating enough.  But…I am just tired.  I don’t feel like I have anything left.

 

 

 

 

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