Not Much To Say

I don’t have much to say today.  I feel really depressed, discouraged and hopeless.  I feel like I am not doing therapy the way I should be doing it.  I feel like I am not worth recovery. I feel like I can’t eat anymore.  I have hit my tolerance and am now crashing.

I hate myself for being sick and broken.  I don’t know why my team here doesn’t understand that everything we are doing here is pointless because I am never going to get better.

I just wish….I don’t know what I wish.  I just need something different than all of this, something that will give me some solace and peace.  Or some little something that looks like hope so I can latch on to it.  Right now, I don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel. I just see the tunnel caving in around me and trapping me to slowly suffocate in darkness.

 

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