Bleak Monday Morning

Well….I have taken a shower and combed my hair. And I am back in my bed wishing the day wouldn’t start and that I don’t have to function.  I just want to cry and I can’t face another day.

Saturday night, I went out with a recovery-minded friend.  I had a really nice time.  We had dinner and then poked around in a couple of stores.  This caught my eye.

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This kind of sums up 2016 for me.

Of course, the “mess” started a very long time ago, and this year, I am just trying to deal with the mess….But it sucks.  I have spent 19 weeks out of state in ED treatment this year.  I have at least 6-8 weeks more treatment before I will go home.  It just kind of wears me down.  Like, right down to the core…I am just weary.

I am also coming off a rough weekend, and it is Monday morning and I just want to hole up in my room and isolate for the day.  My perspective is on the bleak side.  I guess that means it is time to get up, go through the motions of my “normal” morning and then get to PHP.  When all else fails…Go to autopilot.

 

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