Well….I have taken a shower and combed my hair. And I am back in my bed wishing the day wouldn’t start and that I don’t have to function. I just want to cry and I can’t face another day.
Saturday night, I went out with a recovery-minded friend. I had a really nice time. We had dinner and then poked around in a couple of stores. This caught my eye.
This kind of sums up 2016 for me.
Of course, the “mess” started a very long time ago, and this year, I am just trying to deal with the mess….But it sucks. I have spent 19 weeks out of state in ED treatment this year. I have at least 6-8 weeks more treatment before I will go home. It just kind of wears me down. Like, right down to the core…I am just weary.
I am also coming off a rough weekend, and it is Monday morning and I just want to hole up in my room and isolate for the day. My perspective is on the bleak side. I guess that means it is time to get up, go through the motions of my “normal” morning and then get to PHP. When all else fails…Go to autopilot.